I wonder if you'll ever realise how ridiculous this is.
Didn't I tell you how unstable I am.

I am not a fighter.

Far too damaged.

I am feeling kinda fueled now. Like hyper and for once, different.
Almost enough to not go to bed tonight.
I said almost. Hehe.
I feel happy. :)
Not sure why, but I am guessing that it could be because I don't have to do any work today, after rushing homework like a mad dog for the past few days.
Then again it's my fault for procrastinating during the break.
Then again again, it's called a break!

Or maybe it's just my somewhat screwed hormones.
Cause I remember having murderous intentions in the morning, like every other morning.
Which reminds me, I saw betrayal in person this morning at the smoking corner.
Bitch.

Anyway, whatever the reason, I just hope it stays this way.

Gonna wake up later, 
Happy 6th month chippy :) <3

This might come in a little late but better late than never :D

I feel weird this new year it's as though I'm still living in 2011.
Maybe 'cause I'm not suppose to feel any different from yesterday or the day before, even if it's a new year.
But at least I spent it with someone I love. :<)

2011 was a rough year, from the start to the end.
Mostly from battling my own mind.

Basically, 2011 somewhat sucked.

2012 New Year Resolution

My resolution is probably going to seem like a wish list but heck,
this year, I'm going to 1) take care of my health and well being 
I think I need that. I'm bleeding every where from nose to gums to...
It's gross and it scares me a little. Time to bathe and sleep early.
And maybe execize.
Next, 2) Start saving money.
I need to quit saying that " have no money" in a very sad way. 
Hate it when chippy has to pay for me.
I am even thinking about working.. What a big step.
Number 3) work harder in order to become rich. hehe. There's no other way right now since I'm not buying 4d.

Four, and the hardest, try not to let shit from 2011 get the best of me.
Think I've somehow locked myself up again. No doubt, I am getting better.
But it hits me from time to time.

5) Treat chippy better, cause she deserves the best :) and let her whine sometimes.
I should plan our date more conscientiously... :/ (I hope you won't repeat no. 5 when it's my turn to plan our date kerrie)

6) Go out more, have fun and party and maybe stop rejecting lionel. After all, it was me who brought him to club in the first place.

7) Stop hiding.

Last but not least, live this year to the fullest.

AND SPEND NEXT NEW YEAR WITH CHIPPY.
and perhaps some others.

Hopefully, by doing no. 1 chippy will do so too.
And by doing no. 2 she'll stop saying "with what money"

I know you're gg to read this chippy  HEHEHE

<3

point

random bear


I was going through some of our pictures.
And realised that almost half of my pictures are of her sleeping...
In the first 3 pictures she is not exactly asleep but....
I like how she always try to get my attention. hahaha.
She's very loving though.
And the last photo doesn't really happen in real life. She can't really keep quiet for more than 2 mins.
And I wouldn't want her to either.
What an annoying girl but it's strangely cute.



Really really annoying. haha.
sigh.

 OWWW

Quick drawing.
Don't know how to put it into words. But every now and then,


I feel a little something like this.

Bad hair cut.

So I had a really, really bad hair cut yesterday. My mom decided to chop off my hair when I went to her salon yesterday 'cause she can't stand the way my hair falls all over my face. So now I no longer have fringe. And I've not stop complaining and whining about it since. :(

I left the salon depressed and walked around randomly when I heard someone bawling and sobbing like crazy.

So I sat beside her and try comforting her while she continued crying.

Anyway that's not the point.

After that she was kinda grateful and hoped for me to find someone that loves me. 

And I told her that I already have. :D #sogay

 OMG! It’s the final weeeeek! I’ll be flying back to Singapore in 2 days time.

I have a mixture of feelings. Happy and at the same time sad though and I’m pretty sure everyone else does too. During my 5 weeks stay here I’ve really and grown attached to this place. - To good food, friends, parents-free and the dorm.
I bought many things from here, to bring back as souvenirs. Some, notebooks some clothes and some are just crap.
Not to mention I’ve learnt many things.

1) SCRIPTWRITING – It’s a class that I enjoy a lot, even though my grades did not meet my expectations.

2) IS LESSON – The IS lessons had taught many things… Such as Chinese calligraphy, paper cut, history of China and her economic growth. I sure benefitted from the classes, for my future.

3) Culture – We definitely speak and dress differently. The best part is, we SHOUT for the attention of the stall owners. The way people speak is slightly more rowdy as compared to Singaporeans.

4) Architecture – There are large stretches of buildings with street food stalls side by side other and they are a little run down. The shopping malls here are similar to the ones in Singapore. Shopping’s way cheaper by the way.

5) Weather – It’s slightly screwed. It can get hot one day and really really cold the next.

6) Food – YUMMY food. The street side food is occasionally not cocked well but they have a kickass spice call ZI LAN. (sorry I spelled wrongly for the previous posts because I only found out yesterday. ☹) Food is cheap and has lots of variety. WUHAN’S FOOD SPECIALITY. ZHAJIANG MIAN. It’s noodles with some salty sauce. Oh and Xiao Long Bao’s called Tang Bao here in China.
There is one thing that bugs me. How do people here in China see their money. How much exactly, is ten yuan to them? For us it’s only two dollars. Does it worth more than I think it is to them? Is starbucks a luxury? I still don’t know and maybe that is because I keep converting yuan into sg dollars………. Which is also the reason why I bought so much crap.

SIDE TRACK
Yesterday, my classmates and I decided to sing KTV again!! For the last time here… Only this time, with more people. Some MCM peeps came to join us. Us crazy deprived bunch of teens decided to sing from 11pm until 6am even though we know we’ve class tomorrow! MAN was it fun.. Love everyone’s company. ☺ THIS IS ONE AWESOME OIP. FMS ROCKKKKK.

SIDE SIDE TRACK
I HAVE YET TO PACK MY BAG!!! :( !!

I had a jolly time this week. :)
This blog will have many pictures to help me reenact the story of my week.
On the first day of this week we had IS lessons on ECONOMIC OF CHINA. Since China's market is growing rapidly and she is super rich, I'm pretty sure that i the near future many people would have to migrate to china for jobs so the lesson is beneficial to us. Good thing Hubei is one of the less developed part of China as compare to Shanghai so shopping is still cheap :X hahaha
At night after dinner, we head down to Chicony shopping mall and sang KTV. or should I say screaming songs in the mic. SO FUN. Finally something to destress, chill and relax! 
I mean look at us!  

Anyway, good thing my poor legs healed in time for the mountain trip. YES. We went on ANOTHER mountain trip - Mount Lushan!
The trip to Mount Lushan was not as torturous as Mount Wudang which had taken half my life by the time I've reached the top.
We did climb many steps, only this time we climb down. :D Plus the mental and physical training from before benefitted me. hahaha. Going down was a breeze and breezy.

I have always wanted to climb mountains.. I wanted to join the Adventure Seeker (CCA)  but I'm afraid that it will be too intensive. Now that I got a better idea of how it feels to climb a mountain I might just join. :) Going to Mount Lushan is a great experience of someone like me who had hardly ever climbed mountains, never seen a waterfall,
    

or rowed a freaking boat before At first, we were laughing at a man rolling an ugly swan boat towards the waterfall but after seeing Gigi and Hui Xin getting on the boat, I felt tempted to try. Man, was it fun. Me, Gaby, Pei Yun and Michelle shared on boat. We kept screaming at first, thinking that we were gonna fall over. Good experience.   
I felt very refreshed just by looking at the waterfalls even though it wasn't a really big one.
and hence, I thought that I had a better time in Mount Lushan as compare to Wudang. Since I didn't felt any strain on my legs I was able to enjoy the scenery. They have some really old and bigass trees that is about 500 years old.